im back! first post after a long hiatus

so summer has been trudging along and i must say i am quite excited for school to start. this summer has been fun (mostly boring) but still overall pretty relaxing. no more of that high school stress...except for maybe finding a job (impossible), "pre-studying" (as my parents like to call it), and tutoring (not fun at all). but yeah. so far so good. i guess the only thing that really sucks is that everyone is here one minute and gone the next; if only everyone could have stayed here for the entire summer. but i suppose even then there wouldn't have been enough time. we would all still be thirsting for more time to hang out with each other wouldn't we. yep.

this summer has also been a summer of many firsts.

1. went to a movie on the premier night
2. turned 18
3. had a semi-legit (but not really) job/ actually made some money
4. graduated high school (this one is pretty lame)
5. watched two cats interact
6. had free chipotle
7. ordered a new laptop (more on this later)
8. went on a semi-legit hiking trip at night
9. returning back to plasticferocity

....
this list is actually kind of sad. i take back some of what i said before about this summer being somewhat fun.

anyway, two days ago i ordered a new laptop and i must say ITS ABOUT FREAKING TIME. there are so many things about my computer that just are absolutely ridiculous.

1. my desktop computer is a grandpa
it's so old they don't even make the model anymore

2. 256 mb of ram
this equates to having one firefox window open....and nothing else. if that window happens to contain something like restaurant city, my computer likes to incessantly send me reminders that a script on the page has stopped due to low memory. heaven forbid i have gmail open with restaurant city.

3. blue screens of death
enough said about that.

4. my computer is possessed.
i don't know by what but my computer likes to play sounds, like advertisements or music, when there's nothing opened. it's like rachel's old cellphone which was possessed by a dead squirrel. is it creepy? a little. am i scared? not really.

5. opening my computer
it takes 10-20 minutes to start up. sometimes when i press the power button the computer opens but nothing happens. my computer likes to make it seem like it's going to work and then give up halfway. its a quitter...and a tease.

6. it's really really ugly
part of the outer casing of the desktop has fallen off and i'm to lazy to reattach it. that and reparo doesn't work. it's also really dusty.

7. viruses
i think my computer might have some viruses.....maybe. quite possibly? most likely. add on the fact that my so called security programs don't do shit? i'd say it's about time to upgrade wouldn't you?

8.it's a pc
macs ftw!

so yes. i'm super stoked for a new laptop which should come before the end of the month!

this entry has two lists in it. that's also a first for me.

i think i'll talk about hp6 for my next post. be excited!

finally, why the fuck do i still play freaking restaurant city??????

this should have happened 9 days ago.

i am legal. that means pros/cons time.

pros.
i can legally drive people (never going to happen unfortunately).
i am an "adult".
i can vote!
college i suppose.

cons.
the draft.
smoking is bad for your health.
i am an "adult".

fuck the draft. it scares me shitless but i have faith that obama won't make america go to war...at least not in his first term.

recently i discussed my ever-present inferiority complex with fellow sufferer rachel cho. if not obvious enough, we are outshadowed by far more stellar siblings.

we realized in our short discussion what doesn't kill us doesn't make us any stronger. inferiority complexes are by design, a motivational tool. it honestly does make you try harder but the outcome (all too often) makes you wonder why you even tried in the first place. while this complex doesn't make me any less of a human being [this just now, was an example of overcompensation], it certainly does its part in making me feel/think i am. in case you were wondering, inferiority complexes also manifest as an excessive need for attention, criticism of others, and anxiety.

shamWOW, it'll make you say WOW everytime.

i have realized i get sleep paralysis quite often. it is not a pleasant feeling.
on a happier note, i am getting my computer soon!

i think my blog posts are very shallow and disorientated, much like yearbook signings. my apologies for plaguing your mind with my trashy ramblings. perhaps you should read steven's post which probably lies above mine. does anyone else see this persistent image? i assure you, it is much better. just like his research paper.

multitude of sighs.
gabe chen now says this.
spencer:+1

its a losing battle isn't it.
self-overcompensation. (did this need a dash?)

paper

oh by the way, i threw out my realy big stcsack of scaratch papers.

so now i jsut use newa paper.

lmoa

jetlag

iamexperiencingcrazyjeglagt

iwatchedboysoverflower

ilove my mac and i think korean dramas are exptraemely unheality and boysoverflowerisa really bad drama and idk why i am watching it.

too much conan i didn ot think idever say tht

omg my sleep is sooffa;slkdjf

canwe all hangoutsoon?!

oh and all hp ticketrts werwe sold out so yoonalee is not ogingo on openicn gnighgt anyomore.\a

;lkbjk

hahha sucha bad drama but such hot voys ololllll

UGH

UGH I wrote this crazy long, reflective post about my trip but I stupidly pressed the back button and lost everything. UGH!

maybe if I feel upto it, I'll post when I get back home. UGH!