this should have happened 9 days ago.

i am legal. that means pros/cons time.

pros.
i can legally drive people (never going to happen unfortunately).
i am an "adult".
i can vote!
college i suppose.

cons.
the draft.
smoking is bad for your health.
i am an "adult".

fuck the draft. it scares me shitless but i have faith that obama won't make america go to war...at least not in his first term.

recently i discussed my ever-present inferiority complex with fellow sufferer rachel cho. if not obvious enough, we are outshadowed by far more stellar siblings.

we realized in our short discussion what doesn't kill us doesn't make us any stronger. inferiority complexes are by design, a motivational tool. it honestly does make you try harder but the outcome (all too often) makes you wonder why you even tried in the first place. while this complex doesn't make me any less of a human being [this just now, was an example of overcompensation], it certainly does its part in making me feel/think i am. in case you were wondering, inferiority complexes also manifest as an excessive need for attention, criticism of others, and anxiety.

shamWOW, it'll make you say WOW everytime.

i have realized i get sleep paralysis quite often. it is not a pleasant feeling.
on a happier note, i am getting my computer soon!

i think my blog posts are very shallow and disorientated, much like yearbook signings. my apologies for plaguing your mind with my trashy ramblings. perhaps you should read steven's post which probably lies above mine. does anyone else see this persistent image? i assure you, it is much better. just like his research paper.

multitude of sighs.
gabe chen now says this.
spencer:+1

its a losing battle isn't it.
self-overcompensation. (did this need a dash?)